Ella started to get fussy around four o’clock this afternoon; I realized she was overdue for her bottle, which was probably why she was sitting in the middle of the floor and whining.
“Do you want a bottle?” I asked, and made a “glug glug glug” sign with my fist and thumb. Instead of making the sign herself — she never really has caught on to signing much — she crawled over to me and stuck my thumb in her mouth. But the meaning was the same — she was confirming that she did, in fact, want a bottle. And when I got up and went into the kitchen to make one, she played quietly for a few minutes, content in the knowledge that one was coming. That last bit is the big change from a month ago — her cause-and-effect horizon has extended. She knows when the bottle’s coming. She knows that the front door opening early in the evening means that Mama’s home. She knows that when I get her pacifier that _I_ think it’s time for her nap — a notion that she may or may not agree with. Indeed, even though there have been plenty of physical changes over the past month, it’s the mental stuff that surprises me most — she just seems more in tune with the world, in a hundred little ways.
She’s down to two naps a day, neither quite as long as I’d like, and she’ll still get up in the middle of most nights, though that’s been steadily improving. Those two bottom teeth are much bigger, but their brothers and sisters have yet to show up. She’s up to three meals a day now. She’s much more elegant with moving and pulling herself up and crawling, though not to the point where you’d actually use the word “elegant” to describe it. And she can dance! If she’s standing it takes the form of a slight, bobbing crouch. If she’s sitting, she’ll rotate side to side. It’s not entirely clear what triggers it. Music, obviously, but since the first time I saw her do it I’ve spent lots of time playing peppy music and prancing around her while she just stares dispassionately.
And then there is the matter of walking. For what it’s worth, Nana Bruinooge firmly believes that she saw Ella take two steps while lurching toward Suanna this weekend. But she was the only person to witness this event — in a crowded room, no less — so I’m afraid I must treat this information as suspect. It all depends on what you’d call a “step” — does it count if it’s made while lurching headlong from one handhold to another, or is some minimal level of balance required? Even if the controlled-fall-with-leg-advancement maneuver counts as a step, I think we’re still in a grey area here, at least from what I’ve seen. But it’s going to be soon, because she’s definitely getting the hang of the fact that people _want_ her to walk, and act very happy when she tries.
Stranger anxiety seems to be winding down — she’s much more likely to let someone hold her without fussing than she would a month or two ago. At the same she’s a little clingier with Suanna and I. This can be frustrating when all she wants to do is play with her books but starts crying if you’re not within two feet of her while she’s doing it. But this is more than counterbalanced by the fact that she likes to linger with her head on my shoulder for a few minutes after she’s had a bottle, and that she sometimes likes to sit on my lap, not to get at my laptop, but just to sit.
I have a feeling there’s going to be even more changes between now and her first birthday. This is fitting, because in my mind, 11 months is still “just a baby,” but 12 months is Something Else. It’s hard to believe that it’s been almost a year, but it’s also hard to remember a time before we had Ella around.